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Another day, another wierdness
Jul. 18th, 2003 12:34 amSo, got some *things* done, big tick in *Yay Me* column.
Went to Its Been A Bad Week recording. Funny. Its a shame they editted out the WMD sheep and farting jokes, and the story about the drunk man. Although the drunk man was really a visual thing. Chatted with comic types who told us the places they hang out, the type of people we might like to contact, and thusly am feeling rather up for stand up comedy. Three pints of Stella amy also have helped, as has cheering up alanabai (sorry, I havnt bothered to learn the link code yet, thats on another days To Do List).
Oh, and Most Excellent news [that is supposed to be a pun, as I know this is not a Good Idea in *that* sense] I will very soon be getting CBT'd up, biked up, insured, and wizzy round London on a cordless hairdryer! This will fun my SUZUKI project (or Yamaha, am looking for a wee bike that I can *fix*). So I am happy. Trebbly happy.
Important things done - tick
Had fun - tick
Made someone happy (even if vicariously) - tick
I have also learnt today that trust is more than a word, more than a little thing, but can be everything to some people. I am sorry for not always having given these people the respect they deserve for giving me their trust.
I have also learnt that most people *like* me (in the nodnodwinkwink way) STILL for superficial reasons, so I am STILL failing to be myself. Or is it that I am really just a dull bitch who's only plus points are physical (Celt colouring, can get away with wearing huge Punky Fish jeans, dances like a sex starved snake). Or am I just superficial? Hmm.. this troubles me. I can be objective about people, but this does usually require alcohol and public support. Mostly Im all "How are you, who are you, are you an egalitarian humanist or a neo liberal?" sort of person, rather than a "Who are you, what do you do, do you drive?" kind of person. Of course, this is why I often fail to know the basic information about my friends (like if they can drive, what their job titles are) but know how they feel about abortion rights and homosexuality in the clergy.
Go figure.
Okay now I have that song "Your superficial, I'm a misfit" in my head, which horror of horrors, I LIKE!!!!! AGHHHH!
I am going to pray now... well, not exactly, but the moon is wanning, and I could do with debt relief, so some visualisation meditation is planned.
Love to you all, and you know who you are (well, maybe you dont, and this is something I am sure we can discuss in Step 3...)
Went to Its Been A Bad Week recording. Funny. Its a shame they editted out the WMD sheep and farting jokes, and the story about the drunk man. Although the drunk man was really a visual thing. Chatted with comic types who told us the places they hang out, the type of people we might like to contact, and thusly am feeling rather up for stand up comedy. Three pints of Stella amy also have helped, as has cheering up alanabai (sorry, I havnt bothered to learn the link code yet, thats on another days To Do List).
Oh, and Most Excellent news [that is supposed to be a pun, as I know this is not a Good Idea in *that* sense] I will very soon be getting CBT'd up, biked up, insured, and wizzy round London on a cordless hairdryer! This will fun my SUZUKI project (or Yamaha, am looking for a wee bike that I can *fix*). So I am happy. Trebbly happy.
Important things done - tick
Had fun - tick
Made someone happy (even if vicariously) - tick
I have also learnt today that trust is more than a word, more than a little thing, but can be everything to some people. I am sorry for not always having given these people the respect they deserve for giving me their trust.
I have also learnt that most people *like* me (in the nodnodwinkwink way) STILL for superficial reasons, so I am STILL failing to be myself. Or is it that I am really just a dull bitch who's only plus points are physical (Celt colouring, can get away with wearing huge Punky Fish jeans, dances like a sex starved snake). Or am I just superficial? Hmm.. this troubles me. I can be objective about people, but this does usually require alcohol and public support. Mostly Im all "How are you, who are you, are you an egalitarian humanist or a neo liberal?" sort of person, rather than a "Who are you, what do you do, do you drive?" kind of person. Of course, this is why I often fail to know the basic information about my friends (like if they can drive, what their job titles are) but know how they feel about abortion rights and homosexuality in the clergy.
Go figure.
Okay now I have that song "Your superficial, I'm a misfit" in my head, which horror of horrors, I LIKE!!!!! AGHHHH!
I am going to pray now... well, not exactly, but the moon is wanning, and I could do with debt relief, so some visualisation meditation is planned.
Love to you all, and you know who you are (well, maybe you dont, and this is something I am sure we can discuss in Step 3...)
