Life (mine)

Where to begin?

My last entry involved a rather dubious philosophical approach to kissing girls with boyfriends...

Life is still continuing, as is its will.

I went to Edinburgh and cameback with a billbaord.

I visited Mother this weekend. Thise of you who know, may understand why this was SO hard. It was a good visit, me and Mother got on well, everything was Good. Superficially, it was almost perfect.
But I slept in that house. Well, I was in the living room, and it was everywhere around me. It always is when I am there, but this time... I have emotions now, and I felt it. I felt it. I felt crushed. It has taken from then until now for me to feel *normal*.

Sunday evening was so painful. I wanted to cry or scream or laugh, but everything was raw. When I got in I thought Chloé was here, and that seemed to compound everything. I cannot always make out that I am okay, and it would have been a very painful *hello*, just because i was so raw, exposed and sore. I havnt spoken about it, not really, and i havnt even really written about it. I just don't think I could pretend I was okay, and well, I know I didnt as those who saw me that evening know I was hurting. I just, oh god. The Truth? I am not used to people seeing me hurting, ever. No one has, until now. And I am needing because I am hurting.

Isn't it funny how i can write these things? I like that people can learn that I am human here, so much of *Kim* is a safety barrier. *Hayley* never would have even known she had a safety barrier, *Kim* is going as far as tearing it down. *Kim* will oneday be able to cry :)

I was in the room... and i could see...
Has anyone else been in that place?

How do people cope with emotions? They are so fantastic, so painful, so much...

I am physically hurting from the over-wraught weekend.

Just *WOW*. I am in awe of every single one of you, you, who have lived with thse feelings, all these feelings, your whole lives! Wow!

I have *things* to do today. Letters to write, food to eat, stretching etc...

The banalities are creeping in. But I am happy, and out tonight, so people! ooer! Very good thing. I like people. I'm glad to be one.

X Kim

ps I really am okay.

I know this takes up way too much room, but I've been away...

Quizzes

First of all... Of course! Given my *religion*, I mean, duh! Or did I only know this because I *see* things? Hmm... Would you still have broken the vase if I didn't mention it...etc...

Seer


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Now this I like...

Oooo... Intelligent Angelina is after a piece of
your boo-tay. Sipping martinis as you discuss
the state of Cambodian politics is your ideal
night. You'll gladly be part of her entourage
as she does her ambassadorial duty, and you'll
be right by her side as she wins the Nobel
Peace Prize. Then you get to have lots of
highly intelligent, kinky sex.


Which Angelina Loves You?
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There was a theme. It was Angelina. And see, I'm not crazy! Honest >:D

You are Lisa from Girl, Interrupted. Your not
really crazy in the actual sense, your more
crazy in the "lets all have fun and fuck
the world if they cant take it" kinda way.
You speak your mind and although that hurts,
people are still drawn to you, they simply cant
get enough. You ok with everyone as long as
they follow you and dont try to take the lead.
You know who and what you are and your ok with
that.


Who is your inner CRAZY person?
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Meat hammer? Ooer! Guess I had better not consider revising any sexuality-labels then...

What Is Your Battle Cry?

Running amidst the steppes, attacking with a jeweled meat hammer, cometh KimKali! And she gives a mighty bellow: "Brace yourself, oh human speck of dust! I burn with the holy fires of destruction!!"

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