Just a little hello. I am feeling rather good, if avoidant right now. I used the delayed last tube to people watch, mainly at Camden Town (where I was for about 40 minutes, maybe the only one who was content with the situation). People are fascinating, and if we look close enough, actually see when we look, we can learn so much about humanity. People are fantastic. I love people.
It was actually a good day yesterday. And I may now be going to Ireland next week. I am embracing what may in life. I need to allow myself to live, and it is so hard sometimes, I am so used to hiding, and I am exhausted, but I know uit is worth it. Life is worth it.
It is said that the central question of philosophy is:
"Shall I kill myself?"
For if you answer *no*, you are making a strong declaration about the value of life. So, seeing as I made this choice, what am I going to do with it?
Thid is actually a Good Thing. Trust me. I am not hiding anymore, there is nothing to be afraid of. I will not cause you pain, I cannot betray you. I have chosen to livem and I am beginning to comprehend the implications of this.
Wow.
The little things can just blow my mind sometimes. I am so glad I am breathing. It is amazing when you realise you are glad to be alive, it is a huge thing, so small and so huge.
What is everything to you, and nothing to everyone else?
Your mind.
I like that. This is my mind, my reality, my truth.
Sureality. I make words when I cannot find the right ones. Sureality describes my inner-life very well.
I'm going to do the things I must today now.
I hope you all have a good weekend.
And those of you with whom I have made mini-coffee arrangements... lets do that sooner rather than later, so there is more time. And for those I have engaged, lets do it again soon.
X Kim.
Really, I am okay. This is me, now. :)
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